Here's my sketch for the day. It's rushed as much as I could do it, but it's a little more detailed than I wanted it to be originally. The hand close-up is for practice again, of course. I gotta color this somehow, to make it easier to understand. D: Also, his hair seems to be getting longer... I dunno if I like it or not.
ラベル: art, drawing
My male character (still nameless). Tiny image, I know. But I was able to practice drawing a more manly expression on an unusual facial angle, and a hand. I did this kinda rushed (hence, I did it at a small size) cuz I didn't want to sleep too late, but rushed, small drawings are also good practice. I'm too spoiled with the big images that take me like 12 hours to finish a sketch. This whole thing was done in maybe 10 minutes including thinking of what to draw.
He kinda reminds me of Bruce Lee in this image, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. :D
ラベル: art, drawing
I consider myself to be rather philosophical. I do a lot of thinking even while I'm doing something else, like watching TV or playing an online game. But anyway, I was thinking earlier and I just spontaneously started typing my thoughts out on my Facebook page:
The most difficult thing in the world (for me, anyway) is learning to be your own person, independent of other people's opinions and flows, yet at the same time, blending in well, finding your place even, so as not to be useless in the world.
This balance is something that may take an entire lifetime to learn, but even that much time may not be enough for most.
Society always asks you to conform. Even people who think they're telling you how to be unique are still caught up in the same fray. Some of them even mask it, subconsciously or not, as if they just want to see you improve. But the truth is, society doesn't really want you to be yourself. They want you to be something they've already pre-envisioned you to be.
Even worse is that even though you do a lot of thinking about things like this, people are too caught up in their own problems, hang-ups, insecurities, and so on, to really think about you in any significant way, though many of them, such as friends and family, sincerely intend to help you, but simply don't know how, and therefore, fail to do so.
I'm also guilty of restricting myself, even though all this time I thought I was being different. I've always hated society, always looking at it from what I might describe as a third-person view. I don't hate the people; what I hate is the mind. Cultures, traditions, popularity, everything, they're nothing but cliques and trends built up so people can "belong" somewhere.
"Are you 'hip-hop'?"
"Are you a 'Filipino'?"
I want to learn to be able to answer those questions and others like them properly, frankly, straightly like this: "I am neither. I am me."
I think the world is stuck. Everybody thinks there's only one way to do things, because certain people at some point in the past had already decided it. As an example, to be a teacher, you must go through X number of processes, take X number of tests, etc. And yet, even with all of this processing and testing, we still have teachers that don't know what they're doing, simply reading from books and making students' lives miserable instead of helping them study and enjoy studying, ultimately making them better students, not just academically, but in a social setting as well. But that's just one example.
In the end, though, you can't put the blame fully on these institutions and their processes. It's because most people are unable to think for themselves and learn things by themselves that people have to set up these countless rules and technicalities, running on a point system for something so abstract such as human thought. In the end, my conclusion is still that the world is stuck.
ラベル: philosophy, Real Life, sociology
Here's a sketch "page" I actually started last night but finished just now. I'm practicing drawing full-body and bust/torso shots, because I spend too much time doing faces. This is a preliminary design for my standard male character, which I may use for a manga someday. I expect him to go through evolutions and improvements. I haven't really drawn a male character in a while, and this is a good start. As of yet, he has no name, though if you know me IRL, you'll probably notice that he's loosely based on my own looks. I'll have that hairstyle in a couple of months when my hair grows out. Kekeke.
(To view better in Firefox, you can right click and choose "View Image", or even save it to your HD and view it from there. I'm pretty sure IE has a similar option.)
ラベル: art, drawing
I'm sorry, blog, that I haven't posted in a while. I really should've. A lot happened after I last posted, such as my quitting from my job of 1 year because there was no workload, trying to find a new job, Typhoon Ondoy (a.k.a. Ketsana) ravaging our home and the entire city, taking b-boying seriously, Christmas and New Year passing by, taking b-boying even more seriously, and a lot of self-improvement in terms of my discipline and personality. Not to mention, I lost a lot of weight since July, and I'm now only 25 lbs away from my ideal weight.
Sadly, I actually thought of abandoning you altogether. But I realize that this blog is one way for me to look back at my past. What experiences did I go through? What have I learned from them? What games have I played? Why did I like/not like them? I don't have many readers so I obviously don't do it for them.
Anyway, jumping forward, this blog is back, and I'll strive to be able to update it as regularly as possible.
I'm drawing again now, and I've set for myself a target of making one "page" of drawings everyday. This is to train me in discipline. So that means, even if I don't feel like it, I have to draw. Of course, there are exceptions to the rule, for example, days when I'm in a hectic schedule over one of my part-time jobs, other job hunts, etc. But still, I feel it'll be good training.
Here's a recent completed sketch:
I may consider coloring that someday. But for now I gotta keep working on my sketching. I take too long to draw stuff.
ラベル: art, drawing, Real Life
